Does a cancer survivor ever stop wondering if “it” has come back? This month my low back has been bothering me – it does that occasionally but this was the longest flare up I have had in a few years. After a couple of weeks the thought did cross my mind – maybe the cancer has spread to my bones.
I think what started these thoughts is that I worked on files for employees who had been granted a disability retirement for … yes, terminal cancer. And a retirement application was brought in by two daughters - their mother was dying of cancer and in fact she died less than one week after I met with her daughters and accepted the application.
There is more … a woman in my HER2 support group has been cancer free for several years but at the beginning of June she was diagnosed with breast cancer in her remaining breast. This is not a recurrence - it is a brand new cancer; this time her cancer is Estrogen positive and it is not HER2 positive.
And finally, I had blood tests last week, a PET scan today, and tomorrow morning I will have a CT scan. I am a little anxious although I truly believe that the test results will be good.
Yes, my mind did wander a bit this month but I spent only a little time dwelling on the negative thoughts - instead I focused on listing all of the many blessings.
Another month has gone by – another month of blessings.
2 comments:
It would be hard never to think negative thoughts....but when they creep in get busy doing other things and enjoying those cute grandchildren! Oh! Happy Anniversary!. Love Nancy
I like the blog's new look. No matter what, life is good and all will be well. See you soon!
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