The fatigue stinks. It is sneaky - one minute I’m fine and the next minute I am surprised with a barrage of unexplainable tears. In the midst of the tears is the thought that I am so tired I cannot keep my face on. I know that is a weird thought – I guess it is admitting to myself that I cannot fake being ok.
I was warned by Dr. Risbud that this would be my toughest cycle; he explained that the chemo has a cumulative effect. He was right, it is my toughest.
With the first two infusions the side effects seemed to last only a couple of days and then I was up and going again. Infusions three and four have been different – the side effects drag on and rob me of the days I previously enjoyed before the start of isolation.
Long naps are helpful. The remembrance that tomorrow is a new day is encouraging. Knowing that I am done with A + C is comforting. Believing that the chemo is working keeps me going.
3 comments:
I don't "color coat" it .. yep, this STINKS! I told you this is when I really lost it and realize I didn't have the strength to keep going - it had to be GOD! Now on the positive side, for me at least, fatigue wasn't a problem with Taxol :-) Let's up that's the same for you! Sleep and Sleep and know that God is holding you in His arms saying, "I love you .. and I will help you through this my precious child!" I'm proud of you and I AM HERE FOR YOU! Donna B
So sorry Jan that this is so hard! You might just have to sleep these first days away, until the worst is over. I pray that you will get better each passing day. Tell Justin and Danny hi from their mom. Love you, Nancy
Hang in there,Jan.You are is Gods loving care.
With Love and Prayers,
Sandy Gee
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